My View Date: 06-30-05 Document date: 06-26-05 By: Kamesh     Preliminary note from the editors of exbaba.com: Not a single word of this account has been changed, here we present the original story of Kamesh.  The full identity and location of the author is not given, for reasons that are obvious to those who realise the extent of the criminality at Sai Baba's ashrams. Exposé activists regularly receive mails with harrowing accounts and requests for help, most of which we are asked not to post. There are many reasons for this, most often due to the family, to protect vulnerable friends and so forth. In this case we are permitted to post this riveting description of what has largely been know to those of us who have truly researched the matter and contacted personally many of those involved. The work goes on unseen, the evidence mounts and the network of ex-devotees spreads all the time.     Hi, The story of my life seemed to have changed when I first came in contact with sai baba at whitefield in 1996. listening the bhajans and watching him made me feel calm and serene. Later I decided to apply to his college and was grateful enough to get an admission in it. Whatever I am going to write in here is what I have truly witnessed. I would also recount the experiences of my fellow friends and their names are changed for privacy. I am going to start with saying that I am no Baba basher. I feel that I got a free education in his college and I am fortunate for that.   I am going to leave the part out where I became a devotee. It is similar to the experiences most people have. I was close to baba and was in form for quite some period. I used to get a lot of interviews and was quite happy and contended. I guess that I was a sincere devotee. Then one fine day during shamans I saw a vibhuthi pellet in his hand and was quite confused. I did not understand its meaning or rather I should say its significance as in his ashram we try to analyze the mystery behind swami’s words and actions. I was intrigued and debated over this issue. Others as usual made up some stories but I was determined to know what’s going on. Later I got to sit in the bhajan hall where the tabla player sits and this moment defined my approach towards swami. After the interview swami comes out and stands next to the pillar then he goes in. Luckily the interview door room is half open and I could see him going to the window. Then he picks a cover and takes out a vibhuti ball from it. He then realizes that the door is open and looks straight at me then winks and comes out to give that vibhuti pellet to Dr.Goldstein by crushing it.   Later during darshans I have seen him do this act several times and I have seen him carrying watches in Trayee, rings in kodai etc. Now I knew where it came from but I did not know the source. So I asked my buddies who lived inside the ashram and also in charge of security for swami about it. They said that baba has a small vibhuti pellet making machine. Also he gets his rings and fake jewelry from Kharwad in karnataka and Hyderabad in Andhra Pradesh.  When shyam was in kodai (he is my good friend), he told me a very interesting incident. It was during darshan and he was inside the house doing some work in kitchen. Rest of the boys and guests have gone for walks. He was cleaning up some cabinets downstairs with dileep when he found a big box. He wanted to open it but Dileep stopped him and told him not to do so. Reason was that it is swami’s and no person should touch it. Later dileep went out on an errand and shyam got a perfect opportunity to peek inside the box. He was shocked to see all kinds of diamond rings- 3d’s,9d’s and 1d’s where d stands for a piece of diamond stone on the ring. Then during the rest of the trip he saw swami materializing the very same brooches, rings, necklaces ad what not. He was personally devastated. Even more so, when swami gave him an interview and when they were alone Swami unzipped his pants and squeezed his penis. He asked shyam how he felt and was the sensation pleasant?.  Swami, in my personal opinion is a homosexual being. There are several reasons for that: 1) He molests only boys and no girl so far has reported about a molestation experience. 2) He spends most of the time with men and never with women. 3) The men around him are all homosexuals- at least in varying degrees. I do not think that I need to give out names here. 4) He loves fondling young boys. 6-24 is the age group he chooses. He likes tall, slim, fair, handsome, girlish boys a lot. 5) I have repeatedly heard him say his favorite boys that marriage is bad and swami goes away from a boy’s life when he marries.  One of my friends had this sexual experience with swami and then new never told any one about it. He got interviews many time and I used to wonder why is he so confused and flabbergasted every time he stepped out after the interview. I also saw him reluctant to come any more for darshan. He was afraid to sit in the friend. He started hiding a lot. So I began to suspect that something is going on and one day I confronted him. I clearly asked him if swami is molesting him. He beat around a bush for a while and then later realized that it is better to share the experience with someone else as it relieves some pain. He told me that swami used to rush towards him in the interview room and hug him and kiss him longingly in the mouth. Baba has the nasty habit of not only kissing but also sucking the lips of the victim. Then swami had oral sex and during this time would say “This is oneness with god, this is union with god”.  My friend is like a girl in a lot of aspects like talking walking and speaking thus attracting “divine” attention. I also knew a wonderful human being called C. and he used to be a mandir boy. What it means is this guy slept in swami’s room. His life was a miserable and painful one. He had a porn star kind of a life with swami and he was so fed up with it that he nearly lost sanity. He finally found some caring woman and fled puttaparthy. Such is the situation with swami’s chosen boys. As for me, I never had a sexual experience with Swami but I believe my friends and trust them.  There is something I wish to clear, swami’s college has 300 odd students in each campus and it is portrayed that all these students are homosexuals and immoral. I sincerely believe that these men and women are of a very good nature. I trust them to do well socially. However, there are a few perverts there. Some form boys molest other students and some of these students are teachers now still molesting other pupils. Here the most  perverted teacher is Ravi kumar of Whitefield College. I have personally seen him escorting boys to his room and molesting them later.   Apart from these experiences the most profound one I had was during shivaratri 2002. Here for the first time I saw swami bringing the lingam tucked under his robe. Later he switched it into a kerchief and the rest of the story is well known to all of you.  I know and still do the boys who were and still are in charge of security. They are all victims of rape and abuse. These guys and the rest of the crowd cannot flee as their parents would not believe them. Swami ensures that not only the student but also the family comes to the ashram for a permanent stay. So these guys are stuck there for ever and suffering quietly.  Another notable person is Dr. K.Anil Kumar who is the official translator of swami. I came to know him and we were good friends. He told me that he has to exaggerate a lot about the deeds of swami because he is told to do so. He is scared to lose his position and fame if he does not do these things. The famous water project catered only 120 villages but he told everybody that 720 villages were given water. He told me this during the grama seva a few years back. Also, what happened to the money involved for the water project or the super specialty hospital?  Some of my friends in the central trust told me that Bangalore srinivas and others in the trust like janaki ramaiiah swindled sizeable portions of it. One of them even heard srinivas asking a L &T person that ONLY if Srinivas is given 10000 shares of the company would he give them this project. (Village for destitute children). L and T refused, but their competitor nagarjuna builders paid up and the project was theirs to take.  Some of the experiences I share today only reflect the nature of society we live in and are part of. The story of swami being a fraud will never probably come to be as people want to believe in something or they feel lost. Many times I have seen baba falter but 99.99% of the people do not notice it or if they do, say simply, it is gods will.   Only when we think and question can we improve. But in the ashram we were not allowed to think but to surrender.   I would end by saying that life goes on and with time everything will heal. Just love whatever you have because you are a unique individual and have a lot to offer to the people around you and the world at large. So let us all live in love and respect each other and make good use of the time which has been given to us.  Bye   SRI