Testimony from Terrie
From terrie109 on:
Sathya Sai Baba Discussion Club, message 2470 and 2477:
http://clubs.yahoo.com/clubs/sathyasaibabadiscussionclub
Date: 8/6/01 7:55 p.m.
To Kyra, LoveandJyoti,
I don't think there
is anything miraculous about sb's ability to manipulate energy and influence devotees.
It's just that he knows how to do this and we don't. If we knew enough about energy and
matter, it wouldn't seem miraculous at all. We could all learn to use our minds to
manipulate and project energy if we had the proper instructions. I expect that it's an
exact science.
I also experienced that terrific shot of energy that sb is capable of projecting into the
minds of devotees. In a 1997 visit to the ashram I had the "good fortune" to get
a front row seat. I was feeling very devoted, and no doubt putting out lots of energy of
my own. As sb walked past, he turned suddenly and stared straight into my eyes. I felt a
"wonderful" shock of "love" in my brain and felt that I had been
forever blessed by the gaze of god himself. Who needed an interviw? Not me! sb had given
me an "innerview."
It was only later that I realized that the projection of energy from sb wasn't love. It
was a surge of power energy (shakti) that had the effect of an electric shock treatment on
my mind. I experienced the same sense of confusion that happens after a medical shock
treatment. But I thought I was happy.
For years I had tried to mediate deeply for long periods of time, but could only manage a
half hour of attempted concentration while a devotee.
After ceasing to be a devotee, I found it possible to meditate for much longer periods of
time and to attain much greater calmness. Somehow sb manages to capture a part of our
brain, and we then live in his space until we escape. This sounds supersititions, but
that's the way it seemed to me. I really believe that he places himself in front of the
spiritual light within us and creates a block to that light. He has no power over us once
we turn away from him.
I also kept picking up sexual energy during darshan. But it took the form in my mind of a
small black pyramid. I wonder now if this is the form in which sb stores the energy
(including sexual energy) he draws from devotees.
Message 2477
Date: 8/6/01 11:59 p.m.
Ladies All!!
Ladies, we have some
real female energy going here! May the Goddess in all of us live long and prosper!! That
Goddess is real, and we see her in her manifestations of women teachers, who guide each of
us to go within. sb doesn't have a chance against Her, and I think he knows that.
I hope to see some words from Sparrow. I know she's had similar experiences to those we've
all posted here.
I've copied this entire discussion into my mail program, and for the time being will send
it to Sunrise, which has a "from the boards" discussion section. Maybe Hari and
Afshin will also make a place on their site for the wisdom of the ladies.
Love to all,
Terrie
Hari, Terrie is my real name, but I have two last names..., one for financial affairs
(married name) and the other for everything else, including my professional writing. If
you get to the place where you want articles from us, I'll send my full name and a longer
article. Kyra has her own page on Sunrise. I expect it will be added to from the recent
messages.
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